I didn’t start drinking until college, I was WAY too busy with dance, muscles, and getting straight As in high school to have a social life. But I started drinking in college and never really stopped.
I love good wine, a finely crafted cocktail, drinks, and drinking.
After having Cam when I had a drink or two I felt…different the next day.
Not hungover.
Not tired.
Not nauseous.
Angry.
I yelled at Jeremy and Everett. Not Cam because he’s too little, but I was mad at him anyway.
I felt like shit because I treated everyone like shit. Which feels like shit!
Jeremy noticed the correlation first. That I was losing it the day after having something to drink. I told him to shove it. But then I realized that was exactly what was happening.
So…I am not drinking alcohol right now. And this is the longest I've gone without drinking ever -- outside of pregnancy.
I’m too sleep deprived to feel relaxed or silly or anything but more tired while drinking it and then I hate how I feel the next day. So much so that I’d rather just not participate.
And we are heading into the holidays!!!!
WTF am I going to go?! How am I going to manage all of the bullshit…everything?!?!?!?
I’m going to do something different.
I’m going to use other tools. Exercise, journaling, naps, romance novels, therapy…
Things that don’t make me feel how I’ve been feeling after drinking.
And I honestly feel pretty pumped about it! What a challenge! I’ve never done this before!!! But I know I know how to stay centered. I know I can trust myself to honor my boundaries. I know I want to feel good and for me right now that means no alcohol.
Maybe it means the same thing for you.
Maybe it means something different.
Maybe you don’t know yet!
Let’s figure it out! Let’s put a plan in place! Let’s get you center centered so you can have the holidays you want on your terms!!! In my upcoming workshop we are going to gather all the tools to stress less this holiday season. For real.
More info coming soon! And if you can’t wait, reply to this email and maybe I’ll spill the beans! Ok, fine. I’ll totally spill the beans!
As always, I’ve got your back. I’ve got your front. And I’ve got your undercarriage.
Xo, Alissa
Ps. Our last online Pilates class starts TOMORROW! Tuesday 11/21 and this one is going to run for 5 weeks! Hooray! CANNOT wait to move together through the holidays 🎊 CLICK HERE TO SIGN UP!